12.28.09
O Lord,
I am at the point right now; right here in the coffee shop on Monday @ 4:35p listening to "Unthought Known" by Pearl Jam (from Backspacer), that I am struck with the immense fact that we live in such a fallen world that things truly to the core are longing to be the way that You made them. Things are not bad--or were not originally made evil. You made all things good, "very good" but they are deep down to the foundation cracked and marred, misinterpreted by us. We are truly image bearers of you. You alone made us, made us to mirror You in creativity, love, glory, so that You alone would be glorified by our mere existence. The simple fact that we: live, breathe, laugh, love, cry, scream, sweat, work, whisper, talk, eat, give, take, run, walk, crawl, is the crowning jewel on the most glorious of all Your creations. This speaks volumes about You, Your might & Your worth, it is truly all about You. The fact that we exist is about You, You alone make the sun shine. There is none to rival You. You alone are: Might, Power, Strength. How do we miss this so well, it's right in front of us, the very air that we breathe is such proof of You. Molecules, Science, Chemistry they are all the evidences of the ways that You work, and in Your image we work to try to figure out the things that You speak into existence. O Lord forgive me for missing it so deeply, forsaking what's right in front of me, as if this was all about me. How could I so greatly miss the obvious? I miss it down to my core. But there You are working to restore what we broke. There you are putting right the things that went wrong. How the very essence of creation longs for You, it reflects You. You are so great, not in the very small great that I use all the time like: "Oh those shoes are great." , but in the earth shattering, millions of stars in the sky, how I feel so small standing on top of the mountain, kind of Great. Oh how sad it is that I am so flawed that I am so amused by such passionless things as: technology, computers, busyness, big houses, new cars, and all the gadgets and toys that we ourselves make. We choose the finite over the infinite time after time. You-the infinite chase us down with such perseverance, such purpose. We are so quaint to miss it time after time. You have given such evidences that you'd think it'd be easy for me to see. Coffee, music, art, love, sex, children, family, wine, food, friendships, the very time that I waste not looking for You. There should be nothing left to intrigue me but You. All these things that I enjoy are but gifts You've given to show the glory and majestic power of You.
So back to the song, I think the lyrics of this song were unexpected but very telling for me today.
All the thoughts you never see
You are always thinking
Brain is wide, the brain is deep
Oh, are you sinking?
Feel the path of every day
Which road you taking?
Breathing hard, making hay
Yeah, this is living
Look for love in evidence
That you're worth keeping
Swallowed whole in negatives
It's so sad and sickening
Feel the air up above
Oh, pool of blue sky
Fill the air up with love
All black with starlight
Feel the sky blanket you
With gems and rhinestones!!!
See the path cut by the moon
For you to walk on
For you to walk on...
Nothing left, nothing left
Nothing there, nothing here...
Nothing left, nothing left
Nothing there, nothing left...
Nothing left, nothing left
Nothing there, nothing here...
See the path cut by the moon
For you to walk on
See the waves on distant shores
Awaiting your arrival
Dream the dreams of other men
You'll be no one's rival
Dream the dreams of others then
You will be no one's rival
You will be no one's rival...
A distant time, a distant space
That's where we're living
A distant time, a distant place
So what ya giving?
What ya giving?
